爱情

今天看了一个偶像局， 说了 “感情就需要找一个知道几时该唱歌，几时该伴奏。 如果两个都抢着用麦克风，感情就不会长久了。” 我觉得说的好好哦。 好希望我以后的另一伴不只是我的情人，但也可以做我很好的朋友。 哈哈！可是戏就是戏， 那有那么容易。 PS：我真的错过好多好多哦，如果时间能倒转， 应该好多东西会不一样了吧。 我几时才可以放下呢。。。 可是我不许要拥有， 只要她幸福， 那一切都够了。

The reasons

Yesterday, i had met my old friends to queenstown eat.

Suddenly, there is a discussion about my future plans.

Everyone looks like they were shocked and it was quite impossible to work out the plan.

I know i still don't know what it is actually going to feel like but i have not tried yet.

Sometimes i really prefer people who will believe in me nonetheless despite all those good advices given that should be taken into account.

I guess i can understand how ch feel when we start to bombard all the problems to ch when he talks about the chicken project. i might portray that i disagree in it as i hope he will consider more factors that he might not take into account.But despite all those, i still believe and will support in ch what he is going to do since it's his choice.

But that's not the main point.

Do anyone know what is the real reason behind my future plan?

My Dad and Mum are reaching 60 soon.
I still have not done my duty as a son yet.
They are now still working to support me.

Realistically, how many more years can i serve my duties?

To me, my definition of filial is to make sure they eat good, help financially when they are in need and make sure they don't have any difficulties or trouble.

I really need to have alot of money to do that so i always have spare cash to ensure everything is alright.

There is still a loan of studies debt i need to return my parents. (not they force, but is how my principles hold)

Everything is money.

Sometime i help my father with his friend's buffet business.

I really don't understand why my father want to help his friend as i can obviously see his friend treat him as some cheap bangla helper.

Did you actually see a large buffet size is done by one person?
Obviously his friend is abusing my father's kindness.

I really want to stop all shit by giving more salary money next time so he dun need to be some bangla helper.

Hais.. i think i put a very big responsibility on myself.

I know i had my brothers and sisters.

But my sisters have their own family.

My brother? i don't know if he has considered all this.

There is alot of places i want to bring my parents to eat, to travel haha!

Sound exciting!

Everything will be worth it!

Candid

Am i too candid some time?

But i don't like to hide stuff. ==

ARGH!!!

Assumption

Sometime talking to adult can be quite irritating.
They like to assume we don't know alot of things.

It's true that we don't know alot of things.
But that's doesn't mean we don't know everything.
We know life ahead is very tough. It's beyond imaginable at the moment.

But we haven't stepped in to the working society.
What's make you think we can't handle the stress?
Why not believe in us and let us try handling it then you start commenting about it when we actually need some help when we are lost?

You can't handle doesn't mean we can't handle.



I find i'm really petty when come to such things.
I hate ppl that assume that i don't know when i actually did considered about what they have said.
And they like to keep bombard their experience when i really know its gonna be so damn hard in future.

In the end, what we actually need?
We need ppl who believe in us and support us in everything we do.

After all, the key to the answer lies within our heart; our future lies within in our hand.

We know what we want best.
Not what you think you want best for us.

So guys, if you come across such things, don't dampened by what they say.
Even you failed, at least you had tried.

Learning pointers:

On a personal note, maybe i should have a learning attitude and write down their experiences in a handybook so that when i plan my life i can better foresee any other factors that might pose a threat.
But sometime i forget that i'm too stubborn, petty and not flexible enough.
Yeah i will change for the better to be more humble in life.

Emo Emo

No meaning in life.

Stress

Sometime i really feel i have made a bad choice in doing accountancy.

1)Long working hour.
2)High gross pay? Nah. We are really cheap labour if you use the pay/no.of working hours.
3)Super competitive
4)The most critical factor is i'm going to fight ricebowl with students who score all As in 'A' Level and at least 3.8 to 4 GPA in Poly graduated from local university.
How to outsmart this kind of people.
5)I need to further my studies maybe for 10 yrs more?
6)Social life will be really affected aka no time for friends or family.

I want a wife leh. How to find with such hectic life when all my free time will be used to study next time ==... lol..

Ok i'm whining! But not to anyone but to the blog.

I'm not going to give up though haha cause I want my family to have a more comfortable life.

JIAYOU JEREMY! YOU CAN DO IT!!!

EXTREMELY IRRITATED

I WILL SETTLE MY OWN PROBLEM MYSELF NEXT TIME.
HAD TO STOP RELYING ON OTHERS.
CAN"T WAIT TILL WORKING SO I AM FINANCIALLY CAPABLE TO DO EVERYTHING BY MYSELF.

NOT GOING TO COMMUNICATE WITH HER WITH PROBLEMS AGAIN.
I KNOW SHE GOING TO ASK *** DOWN SO SHE CAN SAVE HER FACE.
SHE NEVER ADMIT WHERE SHE IS WRONG AND EVERYONE OTHER THAN HER IS WRONG.
REALLY CAN"T STAND IT.