tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54897578391235240262024-03-08T22:12:17.216+08:00My ReflectionJermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-25159963613844977392013-01-27T16:12:00.002+08:002013-01-27T16:17:33.199+08:00Hi BlogSometime when you thought your good friends understand you. Is totally wrong. THey don't understand you.
I went to find them to talk. I know i'm whining everyday. But Im stress to a point that I really cried almost every night. I was thrown into a situation where is my first time doing myself and was thrown to do senior job and even manager job. They never conduct planning when all this are supposed to be done before Audit. Yet, now i am the one, alone doing it. I was with a senior in another engagment, they said the planning stage are done by manager and senior with 1 WEEK. Now i'm the only person in the team and i need to do within 1day? what is this? i'm really very stress.
But my good friends sought of don't believe me. Keep asking if it is a phase that normally ppl go? No it don't. It is the mananager that is new and don't know how to plan his fucking work. Now i'm thrown to do everything myself. How am i suppose to do when all this require years of experience. Last year 2 seniors, one assistant and one manager doing it. Now i am doing this alone. I'm taking a four person job alone. How can i do it. you want to pay me four person pay?
Do you know i really sleep at 3am everyday. And now i tried to sleep earlier at 2 am to wake up and 5am to do everyday. I also spent my saturday and sunday doing this stupid assignment. When i'm really stressed out that i went to play a few games with kelvin to de-stress. end up even more work accumulated. But do anyone really know my situation? No. All they comment is try to adapt. what? how to? i'm already sleeping 3 hrs a day. you call me to adapt to his? can you do it first? seriously. And also i get comment like they wanna test you, is it normal phase and keep repeating the same comment. Please if you don't really understand, don't say this kind of comments. It is really insensitive. Talking is so much easier.
anw, it is my own luck and my choice to go into this company. But after this incident, i just realise i'm not really close to them... disappointed.. really.. i'm not whining to them anyomore as it really make me feel worse.
Hope the client don't give me any problems. they keep changing their FS and their evidence given to me is always wrong and their schedules don't tally with the FS.. how do i do?? Please.. i really cannot take this anymore.. i'm feeling really helpless.. or please find someone who understand me and counsel me. what should i do?
Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-8826892604051134142012-10-20T19:52:00.001+08:002012-10-20T19:53:40.251+08:00I won't forget today.I had a big fight with my dad.
My dad almost beat me today.
He said I had looked down on him after he had worked and paid money for my studies.
I was crying like a baby today.
I had never think that before.
I'm working really hard is not for myself.
Why i want to work so hard?
Is because for you all.
I can't stand to see you got bullied by other friends as they tried to use you.
I see you always work even your leg is pain and barely can walk.
the most i can't stand is you vent your anger on my mother when you feel moody due to work.
how to solve all this?
Yes if i am capable of supporting you all so you all don't need to work.
you think i don't want a relationship now?
i can get one if i want.
but i choose not to.
so i can commit more time to my work and further studies.
so i can earn more next time to support you all.
you think i like to do all this?
i'm still doing work on sat and sun even is just my first week of work.
but all i get is i potrayed to him that i looked down on him.
yes i didn't respect you this time. so did you respect my mum?
ask her to help u wash leg when my mum just did eye operation and she needs ample rest?
talk about respect.
thanks blog. you are always hear for me when i needed someone.
Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-85652204239785914592012-10-12T16:26:00.001+08:002012-10-12T22:42:32.418+08:00Breast Cancer Public ForumAssigned as team leader for tomorrow?
What am i supposed to do?
Scary yet exciting.
Hope I can do a good job tomorrow.Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-91983382431187340052012-10-03T16:43:00.002+08:002012-10-03T16:43:40.952+08:00"You are too honest. Why you so stupid?"I really hate the ugly world I live in.
I was scolded by my mum for my stupidness.
I know I am stupid, I'm useless or whatever.
I failed my interview. I failed at everything. I think that's what my mum think of me.
I admit I'm still now leeching off my parent's expenses.
I wanted to work. I already send out all the job applications whatever I CAN FIND ON JOBSTREET JOBCENTRAL JOBSDB NEWSPAPER WADEVER. But no one wants to reply me.
This morning, there is an auntie who knocked the door and said she had 5 children who she needs to take care of. She wanted $30 in exchange of some sausauges.
I give her the $30 without hesitation not because I nvr thought that if she was lying to me.
BUT I RATHER HELP THAN DUN HELP.
WHAT IF EVERYONE THINKS SHE IS LYING? WHERE SHE GETS HELP? WHAT IF WHAT SHE IS SAYING IS TRUE? SINCE I AM BETTER OFF FINANCIALLY WHY CAN"T I JUST SPARE THE FREAKING 30 DOLLARS TO HELP HER? IT"S NOT LIKE EVERYDAY THING. IT"S MY MONEY ANYWAY.
EVEN SHE IS LYING. I"M WILLING TO GIVE. I"M NOT STUPID BUT I"M KIND ENOUGH TO RISK IT CAUSE IT MIGHT SAVE A FEW LIVES.
FUCK THIS WORLD...
Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-4757287753003070262012-09-29T16:44:00.000+08:002012-09-29T16:46:41.377+08:00No wonder i'm not matureSpent the last two night thinking really hard.
I'm lucky that i woke up if not i don't know what will happen to me.
I shouldn't because of a failed interview and started to look down so much on myself.
A successful person will never due to a failure and start to give up on himself.
I am reading straits times and there is an article on a blinded person.
He is rich not in financial terms.
He has a really bad past. But yet he raises his own bar, and said he would never give up and always stay optimistic and reframe situations.
There is so much thoughts after reading this article.
I mean compare to him i'm not blinded is such a big advantage over him.
But he has never given up so am I in any position to just give up?
Really childish of myself.
But glad i have chanced upon this article.
Oh well. Hope i don't get back to my ownself again..
Jiayou..
Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-58766000568929244752012-08-14T22:36:00.002+08:002012-08-14T22:36:56.930+08:00Karma? I need a chance.Dad landed in hospital today.
I feel so useless.
I can't support anything.
I'm jobless.
I'm stupid.
Getting result soon. Dunno if i had done too badly or what.
I'm not contributing to anything.
Is it karma cause my mouth always say things that sound very ugly and hurtful to ppl?
Or what?
I hope my life change soon. Please give me a chance to change my situation now.
Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-27079650691944296472012-08-06T11:43:00.002+08:002012-08-06T11:43:54.347+08:00Why?如果沒有擁有就沒有失去
那為何我還會 傷心Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-16391943588870950472012-06-23T20:49:00.001+08:002012-06-23T20:52:49.009+08:00Worst RepliesOne of the replies when you ask a person out in my opinion is "Who is going?"Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-86662943087657388532012-05-20T23:33:00.000+08:002012-05-21T00:11:04.901+08:00爱情今天看了一个偶像局,
说了 “感情就需要找一个知道几时该唱歌,几时该伴奏。
如果两个都抢着用麦克风,感情就不会长久了。”
我觉得说的好好哦。
好希望我以后的另一伴不只是我的情人,但也可以做我很好的朋友。
哈哈!可是戏就是戏, 那有那么容易。
PS:我真的错过好多好多哦,如果时间能倒转, 应该好多东西会不一样了吧。
我几时才可以放下呢。。。
可是我不许要拥有, 只要她幸福, 那一切都够了。Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-60693337744766427682012-02-01T12:00:00.003+08:002012-02-01T12:25:15.849+08:00The reasonsYesterday, i had met my old friends to queenstown eat.<br /><br />Suddenly, there is a discussion about my future plans.<br /><br />Everyone looks like they were shocked and it was quite impossible to work out the plan.<br /><br />I know i still don't know what it is actually going to feel like but i have not tried yet.<br /><br />Sometimes i really prefer people who will believe in me nonetheless despite all those good advices given that should be taken into account.<br /><br />I guess i can understand how ch feel when we start to bombard all the problems to ch when he talks about the chicken project. i might portray that i disagree in it as i hope he will consider more factors that he might not take into account.But despite all those, i still believe and will support in ch what he is going to do since it's his choice. <br /><br />But that's not the main point.<br /><br />Do anyone know what is the real reason behind my future plan?<br /><br />My Dad and Mum are reaching 60 soon.<br />I still have not done my duty as a son yet.<br />They are now still working to support me.<br /><br />Realistically, how many more years can i serve my duties?<br /><br />To me, my definition of filial is to make sure they eat good, help financially when they are in need and make sure they don't have any difficulties or trouble.<br /><br />I really need to have alot of money to do that so i always have spare cash to ensure everything is alright.<br /><br />There is still a loan of studies debt i need to return my parents. (not they force, but is how my principles hold)<br /><br />Everything is money.<br /><br />Sometime i help my father with his friend's buffet business.<br /><br />I really don't understand why my father want to help his friend as i can obviously see his friend treat him as some cheap bangla helper.<br /><br />Did you actually see a large buffet size is done by one person?<br />Obviously his friend is abusing my father's kindness.<br /><br />I really want to stop all shit by giving more salary money next time so he dun need to be some bangla helper.<br /><br />Hais.. i think i put a very big responsibility on myself.<br /><br />I know i had my brothers and sisters.<br /><br />But my sisters have their own family.<br /><br />My brother? i don't know if he has considered all this.<br /><br />There is alot of places i want to bring my parents to eat, to travel haha!<br /><br />Sound exciting!<br /><br />Everything will be worth it!Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-3595421264864221022012-01-29T22:43:00.001+08:002012-01-29T22:44:14.186+08:00CandidAm i too candid some time?<br /><br />But i don't like to hide stuff. ==<br /><br />ARGH!!!Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-68240066941077048982012-01-24T12:40:00.003+08:002012-01-24T13:12:35.287+08:00AssumptionSometime talking to adult can be quite irritating.<br />They like to assume we don't know alot of things.<br /><br />It's true that we don't know alot of things.<br />But that's doesn't mean we don't know everything.<br />We know life ahead is very tough. It's beyond imaginable at the moment.<br /><br />But we haven't stepped in to the working society.<br />What's make you think we can't handle the stress?<br />Why not believe in us and let us try handling it then you start commenting about it when we actually need some help when we are lost?<br /><br />You can't handle doesn't mean we can't handle.<br /><br /><br /><br />I find i'm really petty when come to such things.<br />I hate ppl that assume that i don't know when i actually did considered about what they have said.<br />And they like to keep bombard their experience when i really know its gonna be so damn hard in future.<br /><br />In the end, what we actually need?<br />We need ppl who believe in us and support us in everything we do.<br /><br />After all, the key to the answer lies within our heart; our future lies within in our hand.<br /><br />We know what we want best.<br />Not what you think you want best for us.<br /><br />So guys, if you come across such things, don't dampened by what they say.<br />Even you failed, at least you had tried.<br /><br />Learning pointers:<br /><br />On a personal note, maybe i should have a learning attitude and write down their experiences in a handybook so that when i plan my life i can better foresee any other factors that might pose a threat. <br />But sometime i forget that i'm too stubborn, petty and not flexible enough.<br />Yeah i will change for the better to be more humble in life.Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-91862795541801287862012-01-18T13:15:00.001+08:002012-01-18T13:16:29.425+08:00Emo EmoNo meaning in life.Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-89611898554714665382012-01-14T19:38:00.004+08:002012-01-14T19:48:31.282+08:00StressSometime i really feel i have made a bad choice in doing accountancy.<br /><br />1)Long working hour.<br />2)High gross pay? Nah. We are really cheap labour if you use the pay/no.of working hours.<br />3)Super competitive<br />4)The most critical factor is i'm going to fight ricebowl with students who score all As in 'A' Level and at least 3.8 to 4 GPA in Poly graduated from local university.<br />How to outsmart this kind of people.<br />5)I need to further my studies maybe for 10 yrs more?<br />6)Social life will be really affected aka no time for friends or family.<br /><br />I want a wife leh. How to find with such hectic life when all my free time will be used to study next time ==... lol..<br /><br />Ok i'm whining! But not to anyone but to the blog.<br /><br />I'm not going to give up though haha cause I want my family to have a more comfortable life.<br /><br />JIAYOU JEREMY! YOU CAN DO IT!!!Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-83132105824040149682012-01-02T22:43:00.002+08:002012-01-02T22:49:48.336+08:00EXTREMELY IRRITATEDI WILL SETTLE MY OWN PROBLEM MYSELF NEXT TIME.<br />HAD TO STOP RELYING ON OTHERS.<br />CAN"T WAIT TILL WORKING SO I AM FINANCIALLY CAPABLE TO DO EVERYTHING BY MYSELF.<br /><br />NOT GOING TO COMMUNICATE WITH HER WITH PROBLEMS AGAIN.<br />I KNOW SHE GOING TO ASK *** DOWN SO SHE CAN SAVE HER FACE.<br />SHE NEVER ADMIT WHERE SHE IS WRONG AND EVERYONE OTHER THAN HER IS WRONG.<br />REALLY CAN"T STAND IT.Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-85823364178862985102012-01-02T14:21:00.001+08:002012-01-02T14:23:41.868+08:00My Resolution-Money<br />-Good Grades<br />-Hope everyone stay fit and healthy<br />-Meet the right one? LOL.Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-54042190151703594002011-12-29T00:51:00.005+08:002011-12-29T01:06:34.180+08:00Expense!Ahhhh!<br />I'm so poor now.<br /><br />If i tell you my bank account left 0. Will anyone believe?<br />Yep it's really 0. <br />But my saviour aka mum put back 500 just to prevent the bank charge.<br />Hais I feel so bad to her that she need to keep 'wipe my backside'.<br /><br />Sometime i feel like telling my buddies what really happen that my money keep missing.<br />But i scare when i tell them, they will feel i'm boasting on how generous or whatever i am.<br />I really don't want them to feel so.<br />So i'm in dilemma whether to tell them that i'm really not finacial capable at the moment.<br /><br />I guess my decision is no. i won't tell them. haha. maybe until they ask. <br /><br />But i doubt anyone will read here cause it's been so long since i last blogged.<br />Even if you see this post, i guess just let fate play its part bah hahaha.<br /><br />There will be an upcoming steamboat event.<br />hais $$ again.<br /><br />Actually i really don't want to go cause i'm really trying not to spend.<br />But then i don't really want to dissappoint them time and time again.<br /><br />Hais i guess need to open my angbao money already which is meant for not to be opened for good luck and supertitious stuff like that.<br /><br />ahh heckcare already la. <br /><br />just enjoy the gathering can le.<br />hope it's a good one. (:<br /><br /><br />Reflection : Money is secondary. Friendship is primary.Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-28285618210132890222011-12-16T12:09:00.004+08:002011-12-16T12:15:37.169+08:00ComparisonHais.. i don't know why people like to compare?<br /><br />I mean if you choose this road then don't compare with others how much harder is your life?<br /><br />And you never really try experience the life others are experiencing how you know they have a much easier life?<br /><br />People like to think i'm childish.<br /><br />Why not say you guys are not mature enough?<br /><br />How can you compare things that are two different world?<br /><br />Some more, you didn't even experience the life of the ppl you are comparing?<br /><br />What are you to judge that yours are much harder?<br /><br />Lame..<br /><br />Only know how to whine.Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-88521170585131926062011-11-30T12:22:00.000+08:002011-11-30T12:23:02.763+08:00Reminder to Self 1要开心,就要先学会看的开。Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5489757839123524026.post-40616402246697276282011-11-30T11:53:00.004+08:002011-11-30T12:04:44.155+08:00Reality<object width="420" height="315"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/FbLfwYkv7ZM?version=3&hl=en_US&rel=0"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/FbLfwYkv7ZM?version=3&hl=en_US&rel=0" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="420" height="315" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true"></embed></object><br /><br />郁可唯 - 好朋友只是朋友<br /><br />作词:黄婷<br />作曲:徐伟铭<br /><br />听你说什么我都很快乐<br />接近你连影子都微笑着<br />几千只纸鹤你都耐心地陪着我折<br />却怎么都折不掉那道无形的隔阂<br /><br />越懂你陪着你就越寂寞<br />灵魂那么美我却碰不得<br />感觉再炽热也不能让飞蛾去扑火<br />靠近你的梦难道就能不是我<br /><br /><em><strong>好朋友只是朋友<br />还是朋友 不能够占有<br />好朋友疯狂以后<br />就一个人走 无所求<br /><br />好朋友只是朋友<br />只能保留 一点点温柔<br />我知道什么时候回头<br />不打扰你的自由</strong></em><br /><br />认识你也许我就足够了<br />缘分的深浅我都不管了<br />可能你感动也看不见我心如刀割<br />哪怕很痛过 至少就不算错过<br />好朋友只是朋友 还是朋友<br />不能够占有<br />好朋友疯狂以后 就一个人走<br />无所求<br />好朋友只是朋友<br />只能保留 一点点温柔<br />我知道什么时候回头<br />不打扰你的自由<br /><br />爱人不是最好的朋友<br />朋友再好也不能牵手<br />感情在天平两头 谁都怕太沉重<br />好朋友只是朋友 还是朋友<br />不能够占有<br />好朋友疯狂以后 还是一个人走<br />无所求<br />好朋友只是朋友<br />只能保留 一点点温柔<br />我知道什么时候回头<br />不打扰你的自由<br /><br />Haha this song is so true.<br />Not only in love relationship but also in friendship.<br /><br />人都是自私的...Jermhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08601312973886244138noreply@blogger.com0